the feeling isn't there anymore.. ::sigh::

hari ni hari minggu.
aku bgn around 6.30.
main redah jer..
hmm yg aku nk tekankan kat sini betapa aku rasa takde feel..
for the first time the feel isn't there anymore...
dont know is it a bless or a curse for me..
tp tu sebahagian doa aku..
dan aku rasa quite happy sbb aku berjaya menidakkan rasa tu..:)
aku cuba cari feeling tu..
tak ada..

love is a verb.. tak baja tak siram macam ni la jadinya.. sigh.. fuhhhh

lesu

hari ni 1st day exam forensic
ok? ko? tak tau..
hari ni aku mungkir janji aku lagi
sakit kepala jadinya
knp la benda2 ni jadi time exam
sama mcm hari tu plak tuh..
aduhh apa nak buat nih
aku kena kuat semangat
kena tetap hati ni
samada nk tunggu, fighting atau...
surrender..

love... again..

love is so fragile ...
worse than my silver ware...
without weekly polishing ...
the shine would wear off, rusty, dusty....
and soon love will be forgotten..
whats left is daily old boring routine...
living together and sleeping together becomes routine .........

Love is not a virtue..
Love is a necessity; more so than bread and water; more so than light and air.
Let no one pride himself on loving.
But rather breathe in Love and breathe it out just as unconsciously and freely as you breathe in the air and breathe it out.
For Love needs no one to exalt it.
Love will exalt the heart that it finds worthy of itself.
Seek no rewards for Love.
Love is reward sufficient unto Love,
as Hate is punishment sufficient unto Hate.
Nor keep any accounts with Love.
For Love accounts to no one but itself.

Love neither lends nor borrows;
Love neither buys nor sells;
but when it gives,
it gives its all;
and when it takes,
it takes its all.
Its very taking is a giving.
Its very giving is a taking.
Therefore is it the same to-day, tomorrow and forevermore.

1st day bunuh nyamuk!!!!

akhirnya start jugak penelitian aku

lama dah terbengkalai projek ni

dgn proposal yg asyik berubahnya

nak tunggu tandatangan lecturenyer lagikkk

alhamdulillah..

hehe seronok gak rasa masa sembur2 tadi

rasa semangat jer aku..

actually sbb buat benda yang tak pernah buat

so excitement tu lebih sikit lah

hmm ni nak exam final next week nih

lum abes study lagi(actually aku mmg tak pernah abis study pun kalau nak exam:P)

hopefully final sem utk teori ni aku dpt flying colours la..

semoga semuanya berjalan lancar sebelum masuk klinik nanti..

insyaallah...

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON

This is a very good article. Those who are still single may learn something from here...
Those who are already married may take it as a guideline to improve your marriage & relationship ...

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, 'How do I know if I married the right person?'
I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, 'It depends. Is that your husband?'
In all seriousness, she answered 'How do you know?'

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.
EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse / partner . You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit).

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.
You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called 'falling' in love... Because it's happening TO YOU .

People in love sometimes say, 'I was swept of my feet.' Think about the imagery of that __expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU .

Falling in love is easy . It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship . Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies , instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, 'Did I marry the right person?'
And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else.
This is when marriages breakdown . People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious.
But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it.
I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.
You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't 'find' LASTING love. You have to 'make' it day in and day out. That's why we have the __expression 'the labor of love.' Because it takes time, effort, and energy . And most importantly, it takes WISDOM . You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships.
Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger.
It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can 'make'love .

Love in marriage is indeed a 'decision'... Not just a feeling.

Remember this always :

'God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go.'

insomnia ku datang lagi

tak leh tdo lar
dah pukul 2.30 ni
mata langsung tak ngantuk
dah off sume dah
slalu camni aku cepat jer tido
hmm nape yer
tp tadi mmg aku bgn lewat pn
1st day period
ngan sakit kepala lagi
sakit perut lagi
ni pening tapi mata tak leh tdo
dh la on9 mlm2 gini boring
tak tau nak buat apa
nak baca benda berat2 rasa cam tak daya jer
aku tgh chat ngan mike a.k.a izamuddin akmal
terkejut gak dia tegur aku hr tu
tp aku dh tdo
haha
pastu dia malas nk tegur dh ingat aku tamo layan dia
hehe
aku mula tu ingat dia lao
hmm dia amik MA tukar course
senang nk dpt kerja katanya
hmm takpe la gitu
ok apa
tak sangka plak org cam dia nk buat kerja2 gitu
bdk laki semesta lak tu
cam tak caya jer
tp okla at least tak susahkan org lain
n tau mana nak usaha
tak mcm sesetengah tu yg aku tgk dah tua bangka pun tak sedar diri gak
si kabu hari tu pun bagus
dpt offer kerja 3 tempat sekaligus
n now dia kat thailand kerja kat sana
n aku sangat berbangga ngan diorang2 yg dah berjaya ni

it's finaleeeeee

hari ni last day kuliah

lepas ni tak de dah kuliah ramai2 ngan bdk batch sendiri

rasa cam sayu kemayu plak

sayang gak aku kat depa rupanya eh

anyway, i wish all the best for us during coming clinical phase..

banyak lagi dugaan bakal mencabar

it's just a new beginning..

semoga tuhan kuatkan semangat kami semua..

aminn

tomorrow never knows

Turn off your mind, relax and float down stream,
It is not dying, it is not dying

Lay down all thought, surrender to the void,
Is it shining? Is it shining?

That you may see the meaning of within
It is being, it is being

Love is all and love is everyone
Is it knowing? Is it knowing?

That ignorance and hate may mourn the dead
It is believing, it is believing

But listen to the colour of your dreams
Is it not living, is it not living

Or play the game "Existence" to the end
Of the beginning, of the beginning

KENYATAAN HIDUP DISEBALIK PERMAINAN INI

Juz to share wif u guys n gals...


Seorang guru wanita sedang bersemangat mengajarkan sesuatu kepada
murid-muridnya. Ia duduk menghadap murid-muridnya. Di tangan kirinya ada
kapur, di tangan kanannya ada pemadam. Guru itu berkata, "Saya ada satu
permainan... Caranya begini, ditangan kiri saya ada kapur, di tangan
kanan ada pemadam. Jika saya angkat kapur ini, maka berserulah "Kapur!",
jika saya angkat pemadam ini, maka katalah " Pemadam!"


Murid muridnya pun mengerti dan mengikuti. Guru berganti-gantian
mengangkat antara kanan dan kiri tangannya, semakin lama semakin cepat.
Beberapa saat kemudian guru kembali berkata, "Baik sekarang perhatikan.
Jika saya angkat kapur, maka sebutlah " Pemadam!", jika saya angkat
pemadam, maka katakanlah "Kapur!". Dan diulangkan seperti tadi, tentu
saja murid-murid tadi keliru dan kekok, dan sangat sukar untuk
mengubahnya. Namun lambat laun, mereka sudah biasa dan tidak lagi kekok.
Selang beberapa saat, permainan berhenti.


Sang guru tersenyum kepada murid-muridnya. "Murid-murid, begitulah kita
umat Islam. Mulanya yang haq itu haq, yang bathil itu bathil. Kita
begitu jelas membezakannya. Namun kemudian, musuh musuh kita memaksakan
kepada kita dengan perbagai cara, untuk menukarkan sesuatu, dari yang
haq menjadi bathil, dan sebaliknya. Pertama-tama mungkin akan sukar bagi
kita menerima hal tersebut, tapi kerana terus disosiolisasikan dengan
cara-cara menarik oleh mereka, akhirnya lambat laun kamu akan terbiasa
dengan hal itu. Dan anda mulai dapat mengikutinya. Musuh-musuh kamu
tidak pernah berhenti membalik dan menukar nilai dan ketika.


"Keluar berduaan, berkasih-kasihan tidak lagi sesuatu yang pelik, Zina
tidak lagi jadi persoalan, pakaian seksi menjadi hal yang lumrah, tanpa
rasa malu, sex sebelum nikah menjadi suatu kebiasaan dan trend, hiburan
yang asyik dan panjang sehingga melupakan yang wajib adalah biasa,
materialistik kini menjadi suatu gaya hidup dan lain lain." "Semuanya
sudah terbalik. Dan tanpa disedari, anda sedikit demi sedikit
menerimanya tanpa rasa ia satu kesalahan dan kemaksiatan. Paham?" tanya
Guru kepada murid-muridnya. " Paham cikgu..."


"Baik permainan kedua..." begitu Guru melanjutkan.


"Cikgu ada Qur'an,cikgu akan letakkannya di tengah karpet. Sekarang anda
berdiri diluar karpet. Permainannya adalah , bagaimana caranya mengambil
Qur'an yang ada ditengah tanpa memijak karpet?"


Murid-muridnya berpikir . Ada yang mencuba alternatif dengan tongkat,dan
lain-lain.


Akhirnya Guru memberikan jalan keluar, digulungnya karpet, dan ia ambil
Qur'an. Ia memenuhi syarat, tidak memijak karpet ."Murid-murid,
begitulah ummat Islam dan musuh-musuhnya. .. Musuh-musuh Islam tidak akan
memijak-mijak anda dengan terang-terang. ..Kerana tentu anda akan
menolaknya mentah mentah. Orang biasapun tak akan rela kalau Islam
dihina dihadapan mereka. Tapi mereka akan menggulung anda perlahan-lahan
dari pinggir, sehingga anda tidak sadar.


"Jika seseorang ingin membuat rumah yang kuat, maka dibina tapak yang
kuat. Begitulah Islam, jika ingin kuat, maka bangunlah aqidah yang kuat.
Sebaliknya, jika ingin membongkar rumah, tentu susah kalau dimulai dgn
tapaknya dulu, tentu saja hiasan-hiasan dinding akan dikeluarkan dulu,
kerusi dipindahkan dulu, Almari dibuang dulu satu persatu, baru rumah
dihancurkan. ..."


"Begitulah musuh-musuh Islam menghancurkan kita. Ia tidak akan
menghentam terang-terangan, tapi ia akan perlahan-lahan meletihkan anda.
Mulai dari perangai anda, cara hidup, pakaian dan lain-lain, sehingga
meskipun anda muslim, tapi anda telah meninggalkan ajaran Islam dan
mengikuti cara yang mereka... Dan itulah yang mereka inginkan." "Ini
semua adalah fenomena Ghazwul Fikri (Perang Pemikiran). Dan inilah yang
dijalankan oleh musuh musuh kita... "


"Kenapa mereka tidak berani terang-terang memijak-mijak cikgu?" tanya
murid- murid.


"Sesungguhnya dahulu mereka terang-terang menyerang, misalnya Perang
Salib, Perang Tartar, dan lain-lain. Tapi sekarang tidak lagi."
"Begitulah Islam... Kalau diserang perlahan-lahan, mereka tidak akan
sedar, akhirnya hancur. Tapi kalau diserang serentak terang-terangan,
mereka akan bangkit serentak, baru mereka akan sadar".


"Kalau begitu, kita selesaikan pelajaran kita kali ini, dan mari kita
berdoa dahulu sebelum pulang..." Matahari bersinar terik takala
anak-anak itu keluar meninggalkan tempat belajar mereka dengan pikiran
masing-masing di kepalanya...


RENUNGILAH SAHABAT SEMUA..


TOLONG SEBARKAN PADA SAUDARA2 ISLAM KITA .. MOGA ALLAH MEMBERI TAUFIQ DAN
HIDAYAH PADA KITA DAN KELUARGA KITA ... MARILAH KITA SAMA2 SEDAR BAHAWA
AGAMA,BANGSA DAN TANAHAIR KITA SEMAKIN TERANCAM!


UMAT ISLAM SEMAKIN MUDAH DIBELI DENGAN WANG RINGGIT, DILALAIKAN DENGAN
KEINDAHAN DAN MEMUJA KESERONOKAN HIDUP, HINGGA HILANG MARUAH DAN HARGA
DIRI!!


JUSTERU, MARILAH, KITA BETULKAN APA YG TERMAMPU BERSAMA2..USAH HANYA BILA SEGALANYA SUDAH TERJADI, BARU KESEDARAN ITU TIMBUL, MUNGKIN MASIH BELUM TERLAMBAT TAPI KITA SUDAH TERLEWAT UTK MERUBAH DAN MEMBAIKI KEROSAKAN YG DIALAMI.


YA ALLAH, SATUKANLAH UMAT ISLAM SEMUA.. AMIIINN..